It's hard to explain the phenomenon of graduation to anyone who hasn't experienced it, but actually most people have experienced it at some level. However, the college graduation experience is very different from the high school graduation experience. Whether or not it's true (and it most of the time isn't), you feel like this is the deciding factor of your life. You seem to have three options: get a job in your major/career field, live with your parents on minimum wage or unemployment and become their slave to pay the rent, or become a homeless street musician in a hopefully warmer climate than your current one. This was my automatic train of thought when I thought about graduating from college...not to mention: when the heck will I finally find an awesome guy who will love me?! (Probably less chances if I'm homeless.) In case you are wondering, yes, I just graduated from college. I am officially a BA, which is a really good feeling.
In actuality, I'm glad that these are not the only options (so I have continually been told) for me right now or for the next hundred years (yes, I plan to attempt that age). Up until now, my life has been mostly, if not totally, made for me. Now I must be the sole person who can bring interest and action to my life...and finally I am feeling ready for the challenge, at least I think so. Life is confusing and frustrating (even though I'm getting used to it and learning to deal with it) so I often don't want to deal with it. But I've learned that my life becomes worse when I don't interact with it. I have to "grab life by the horns" (to quote the Dodge commercial) to a certain extent and engage with the world and people around me.
I also am in the midst of finding my purpose (although I may have many in my life). I know that my current purpose is tied to my passions, but I'm still wrestling and praying about how exactly it is connected and what ways my passions and skills should develop right now. I'm going to be trying many new and scary (at least to me) things this summer, but I will hopefully have a little time to evaluate and blog about them.
